So, right now I am about 3 hours and 7 minutes away from my 36th birthday. (I have no problem admitting my age because ..well, let's face it, I don't look it!hahahaha)
The last couple of years I've decided that my "New Year" starts on my birthday. After all, it is the start of the next year of your life, right? With that in mind maybe it's better to make resolutions on your birthday instead of New Year's Eve!
Typically I don't make New Year's resolutions anyway because very few are ever kept. Instead in the past years I have made "goals" for myself which I guess is the same thing, but to me it's less pressure if I don't call it a resolution! lol
This year however, I resolve to be kinder to myself and to take it easy a little bit, maybe not stress so much. And to hopefully not sweat the small stuff so much. I need to take better care of ME.
In the last moments of my 35th year I have learned that I am allowed to be happy and at peace no matter what anyone else thinks of me or what I have done. People make mistakes and it's not just me. Sometimes people aren't able to take a good look at themselves and that's not my problem or my fault. Stick close to what you know and "do you"! Celebrate yourself because no one else will do it better than you can!
Once this move is over I need to get back to what I enjoy which is writing and maybe produce something really cool! ;p
Just a note: This will be the last blog until I get internet set up at the new place! Stay tuned!! And Happy Birthday to ME!!
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Irony and the sense of it.....
When you think about your whole life, did you ever think it would be like this? For good, bad, or indifferent.
Certain situations never quite turn out the way you envisioned they would. In fact, you could NEVER in a hundred years have imagined it going so wrong.
And the irony is....it all starts out so well and ends in shambles.
What's more is you learn one of THE most important lessons about yourself you may ever learn. So, out of the chaos and upset comes the beautiful flower.
If you do nothing else in life try to learn one lesson from every situation and take it away like a souvenir.
Certain situations never quite turn out the way you envisioned they would. In fact, you could NEVER in a hundred years have imagined it going so wrong.
And the irony is....it all starts out so well and ends in shambles.
What's more is you learn one of THE most important lessons about yourself you may ever learn. So, out of the chaos and upset comes the beautiful flower.
If you do nothing else in life try to learn one lesson from every situation and take it away like a souvenir.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Besties, soulmates, and other wild concepts!!
Soul mates:
–noun
a person with whom one has a strong affinity.
Most people would associate the term soul mate with a husband, wife, boyfriend or girlfriend. This is what I used to believe too. Then I heard an interesting concept, perhaps in a movie.
A lot of us have someone we term our "best friend", but this may be just another way to say "soul mate". Our best friends are the people who know the best and worst of us. Our dirty little secrets, our most hilarious stories, our secret hopes and dreams. Your best friend is someone who encourages you when everyone else has given up or could careless so why wouldn't it be possible that they could also be your soul mate? Your best friend is the one person who sticks by you no matter how many people have come and gone in your life, they remain the constant.
A friend may leave your life for a period of time, but a true one will always come back no matter how long it takes. And when that friendship can pick up right where it left off without a beat you know it is a true and lasting relationship.
To me the term no longer needs to have a romantic attachment to it, it simply means someone who knows me inside and out and still likes me and will always have my best interests at heart. This is for my Mimi!! :p
–noun
a person with whom one has a strong affinity.
Most people would associate the term soul mate with a husband, wife, boyfriend or girlfriend. This is what I used to believe too. Then I heard an interesting concept, perhaps in a movie.
A lot of us have someone we term our "best friend", but this may be just another way to say "soul mate". Our best friends are the people who know the best and worst of us. Our dirty little secrets, our most hilarious stories, our secret hopes and dreams. Your best friend is someone who encourages you when everyone else has given up or could careless so why wouldn't it be possible that they could also be your soul mate? Your best friend is the one person who sticks by you no matter how many people have come and gone in your life, they remain the constant.
A friend may leave your life for a period of time, but a true one will always come back no matter how long it takes. And when that friendship can pick up right where it left off without a beat you know it is a true and lasting relationship.
To me the term no longer needs to have a romantic attachment to it, it simply means someone who knows me inside and out and still likes me and will always have my best interests at heart. This is for my Mimi!! :p
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Mis-Adventures of the Graveyard shift part deux!!
Because the first post was so damn good I thought I would follow it up with more random thoughts on graveyard clientele.
1. Please make sure your zipper is up BEFORE you step through the door. As entertaining as you think it may be, it makes me want to vomit on myself. just sayin...
2. I really LOVE it when you hand me crumpled money and proceed to tell me how it's been in your pocket all day long while you were sweating!!! You can be sure I will make a spectacle out of not only uncrumpling said money, but also sanitizing my hands in front of you so you know what a pig I think you are!!
3.Yes, that is $4.00 and has been the last 4 times you counted it. Get your ass back to kindergarten.
4. Don't complain to me about the air conditioning or how cold you are. You're here for 5 minutes, I'm here for 8 hours. Get over it.
5. You aren't curing a disease the longer you wander around, get your shit and get out!
6. If you come in after 12am looking like a $10 hooker chances are you are one and SOMEONE will point it out to you. It's not my problem and I'm not going to correct them because in my mind I agree. So, put your cloths on BEFORE you leave the house.
7. There's nothing worse than a cowboy trying to be Rock~n~Roll. Please leave.
8. Most of your jokes are not funny by 2am. Don't bother I will only muster up a fake laugh for you and walk away.
9.Here's the thing I want you to realize...if you don't see it WE DON'T HAVE IT!!!
10. And of course my all time favorite.... the restroom is STILL in the same place it was last time. UNDER THAT HUGE BRIGHT SIGN!!! It's like staring directly into the sun for cripe's sake!!
1. Please make sure your zipper is up BEFORE you step through the door. As entertaining as you think it may be, it makes me want to vomit on myself. just sayin...
2. I really LOVE it when you hand me crumpled money and proceed to tell me how it's been in your pocket all day long while you were sweating!!! You can be sure I will make a spectacle out of not only uncrumpling said money, but also sanitizing my hands in front of you so you know what a pig I think you are!!
3.Yes, that is $4.00 and has been the last 4 times you counted it. Get your ass back to kindergarten.
4. Don't complain to me about the air conditioning or how cold you are. You're here for 5 minutes, I'm here for 8 hours. Get over it.
5. You aren't curing a disease the longer you wander around, get your shit and get out!
6. If you come in after 12am looking like a $10 hooker chances are you are one and SOMEONE will point it out to you. It's not my problem and I'm not going to correct them because in my mind I agree. So, put your cloths on BEFORE you leave the house.
7. There's nothing worse than a cowboy trying to be Rock~n~Roll. Please leave.
8. Most of your jokes are not funny by 2am. Don't bother I will only muster up a fake laugh for you and walk away.
9.Here's the thing I want you to realize...if you don't see it WE DON'T HAVE IT!!!
10. And of course my all time favorite.... the restroom is STILL in the same place it was last time. UNDER THAT HUGE BRIGHT SIGN!!! It's like staring directly into the sun for cripe's sake!!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
This is for the next 979!!!
They say it took Edison over a 1000 tries to perfect the light bulb. When asked about how it felt to fail that many times he said, "I didn't fail, I discovered a 1000 ways it didn't work."
So much of this holds true for many today.
The hard part is remembering it isn't about failing it's about recognizing how it didn't work and how to make it better the next time around.
The concept was hard for me to see this in every day life, but I think it's starting to peek it's little head around the corner. It can apply to so many things in life from business or personal quests to relationships.
There are a 1000 ways to fail at everything, but it's about seeing what you did last time that didn't work and how NOT to do the same shit again that will lead you to where you want to be.
Like I said, it's been hard for me to recognize how I was creating the ways in which I was not succeeding at what I need or want to achieve personally. But one day it just clicks and you know!! I'm starting to see the things I have done in the past that were preventing me from going forward.
It doesn't matter what others tell you you are doing wrong or how to fix it, YOU have to be the one to recognize it and want to acknowledge the ways to change it.
Like Eddie Vedder said, "I changed by not changing at all."
This is dedicated to number 18 and to my good friend T.O.. Thank you so very much!
So much of this holds true for many today.
The hard part is remembering it isn't about failing it's about recognizing how it didn't work and how to make it better the next time around.
The concept was hard for me to see this in every day life, but I think it's starting to peek it's little head around the corner. It can apply to so many things in life from business or personal quests to relationships.
There are a 1000 ways to fail at everything, but it's about seeing what you did last time that didn't work and how NOT to do the same shit again that will lead you to where you want to be.
Like I said, it's been hard for me to recognize how I was creating the ways in which I was not succeeding at what I need or want to achieve personally. But one day it just clicks and you know!! I'm starting to see the things I have done in the past that were preventing me from going forward.
It doesn't matter what others tell you you are doing wrong or how to fix it, YOU have to be the one to recognize it and want to acknowledge the ways to change it.
Like Eddie Vedder said, "I changed by not changing at all."
This is dedicated to number 18 and to my good friend T.O.. Thank you so very much!
Friday, July 8, 2011
Circle of friends!
I've been pondering this the last few days, especially with the coming and going of so many people in my life lately.
It's surprising to me, even as an adult, how people come and go so quickly in one's life.
There are so very few true friends left out there. Atleast, not many who are willing to weather the storm with you. I have found lately,like a lot of other relationships today, people take friendship too lightly . Just about everything is disposable. When did good, well intending people become so replaceable?
I remember when I was younger I was told the company I keep was a reflection of the type of person I am. At the time I don't think I understood the meaning of this statement. I figured, what was the big deal. It's one of those lessons that becomes clearer as you grow older. Even now that I am older (MUCH older) I can still see that lesson in situations around me.
Your friends become your family much like your own true family. And in the end you are what you hang with. Some families are happy, healthy, fun loving people while others are dysfunctional, enablers who much like their other members really don't see outside their little circle what's really going on. And when an outsider tries to join, it just doesn't work. That "family" has already worked out their dynamic and outsiders usually don't get it and many times don't want to. Which is why most of the people in that particular "family" have come together in the first place.
There have been people that have come into my life lately that claimed we would remain friends and yet I was met with a cold shoulder when I tried to remain friendly or in touch which I found annoying and insulting. Then I realized, I may miss certain aspects about the group, but there were others that I don't miss and much like I said before I don't get as an "outsider" of the group.
My circle of friends may be smaller, but I am quite happy that way. Those that I have CHOSEN as my "family" I would never trade for the world. They are the ones most like ME and have helped me to weather many a storm in my incredibly ridiculous life. Here's to true friends and all those who truly love who YOU are!
It's surprising to me, even as an adult, how people come and go so quickly in one's life.
There are so very few true friends left out there. Atleast, not many who are willing to weather the storm with you. I have found lately,like a lot of other relationships today, people take friendship too lightly . Just about everything is disposable. When did good, well intending people become so replaceable?
I remember when I was younger I was told the company I keep was a reflection of the type of person I am. At the time I don't think I understood the meaning of this statement. I figured, what was the big deal. It's one of those lessons that becomes clearer as you grow older. Even now that I am older (MUCH older) I can still see that lesson in situations around me.
Your friends become your family much like your own true family. And in the end you are what you hang with. Some families are happy, healthy, fun loving people while others are dysfunctional, enablers who much like their other members really don't see outside their little circle what's really going on. And when an outsider tries to join, it just doesn't work. That "family" has already worked out their dynamic and outsiders usually don't get it and many times don't want to. Which is why most of the people in that particular "family" have come together in the first place.
There have been people that have come into my life lately that claimed we would remain friends and yet I was met with a cold shoulder when I tried to remain friendly or in touch which I found annoying and insulting. Then I realized, I may miss certain aspects about the group, but there were others that I don't miss and much like I said before I don't get as an "outsider" of the group.
My circle of friends may be smaller, but I am quite happy that way. Those that I have CHOSEN as my "family" I would never trade for the world. They are the ones most like ME and have helped me to weather many a storm in my incredibly ridiculous life. Here's to true friends and all those who truly love who YOU are!
Your rose!
"You are responsible forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose."- The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exup�ry
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Solution vs. Soultion
A friend of mine recently said, "Here's a soultion...." I'm not sure if this was a typo or intentional, either way it stands true. As they say there is a "solution to everything", but isn't a "soultion" so much better? It got me thinking what is MY soultion? What will heal my soul? I may not have all the answers all the time or immediately, but I think I am coming up with my answer slowly and surely! Ponder and discuss.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Mis-Adventures of the Graveyard shift.....
Generally speaking, the Graveyard shift anywhere is a treat to behold. The freaks DO come out at night and they usually show up where I'm working.
I've come to find there are some certainties in working the "grave"
1. People are as big of bastards as they are during the day.
No one, wants to awake at this hour. If we say "Good Morning" to you is it really that hard to say it back? Here's your answer: NO!!
2. Men generally believe night shift is open season for proposition. The females who work night shift are not interested in your typically dirty, unshaven, stankin', night crawling ass. No matter how much you claim you make, it could never be enough!!
3. People tend to believe night time is the RIGHT TIME!! No, I will not hug you!! You are a stranger and what did our mothers tell us about strangers.
4. People pay no more attention at night than they do during the day. Where is the rest room you ask? Why it's under that GIANT sign that is lit up which reads RESTROOM and coincidentally you stared directly at it 3 times already.
5. I know you see me standing right there cleaning so when you make a mess, look directly at me , and walk away please know I'm hoping fleas infest your crotch!
6. I am not MAPQUEST!! No, I don't know how far it is to Georgia from here.
7. When you are offered a bag don't bother responding, "No, thx I left her at home." I've heard that peach about a thousand times and I'm really sure you're wife, who tolerates you on a regular basis and probably has for the majority of her life, would really appreciate hearing you say that!
I've come to find there are some certainties in working the "grave"
1. People are as big of bastards as they are during the day.
No one, wants to awake at this hour. If we say "Good Morning" to you is it really that hard to say it back? Here's your answer: NO!!
2. Men generally believe night shift is open season for proposition. The females who work night shift are not interested in your typically dirty, unshaven, stankin', night crawling ass. No matter how much you claim you make, it could never be enough!!
3. People tend to believe night time is the RIGHT TIME!! No, I will not hug you!! You are a stranger and what did our mothers tell us about strangers.
4. People pay no more attention at night than they do during the day. Where is the rest room you ask? Why it's under that GIANT sign that is lit up which reads RESTROOM and coincidentally you stared directly at it 3 times already.
5. I know you see me standing right there cleaning so when you make a mess, look directly at me , and walk away please know I'm hoping fleas infest your crotch!
6. I am not MAPQUEST!! No, I don't know how far it is to Georgia from here.
7. When you are offered a bag don't bother responding, "No, thx I left her at home." I've heard that peach about a thousand times and I'm really sure you're wife, who tolerates you on a regular basis and probably has for the majority of her life, would really appreciate hearing you say that!
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Relax, relate, release!!!!
Sometimes disappointment and let down are just the things you need to get strong again in other areas. Clearing a path to victory and one's desires using a force of will and strength in focus! The worst is over and I can take what I have learned and put it toward a new goal and plan!!! Breath deep....relax, relate, release!!! Bounce, bounce, bounce kids!!
Friday, July 1, 2011
Own your own bullshit!!
I've been going over and over what I wanted to write in my head for the last eight hours. What is the measure of a responsible adult?
There are many ways to answer that question. To some it's going to work everyday, to others it's taking care of your children, to me it's those things, but it's also OWNING UP TO YOUR OWN BULLSHIT!! To me that is a true measure of character be it man or woman.
Every single individual today has some kind of "issue". If they tell you they don't then their issue would be lying wouldn't it?
When I say "issue" I mean to say personal drama or bullshit or characteristic that is problematic.
Do I have "issues"? Shit, I have a subscription!!! I never denied that I do. My past tends to invade my present and I act out when I feel disrespected. Am I always being disrespected? No, probably not so that would be the interpretation in my own head that I need to work on. I lay my own shit bare because that is what I believe in.
A high school friend who shall remain nameless (Bubba) recently told me the greatest thing about me is I have not changed who I am over the years. I still speak my mind, I'm still true to who I am and this is who I will be until the day I die. I am honest and upfront about myself, I live in the open. In turn, I'm honest about what I see around me even if what I say is not popular or taken well. Has it bit me in the ass? Sure it has, many times, but I will not stop being who I am. Could I learn more tact? Sure, couldn't we all in certain areas. For some that may be taking others feelings into consideration or not needlessly twisting things that are said so they aren't in trouble later.
People make mistakes, but the biggest deal is OWNING THEM!! Don't just preach to others how they should be dealing with their life especially if you can't own your own shit because you really have no room or business to be doing so. It's an ongoing process for most and it doesn't just stop one day, you may have to work at it all your life and that's ok. I've been workin on my shit for years, but I never deny it! OWN YOUR BULLSHIT!!! Just sayin......
There are many ways to answer that question. To some it's going to work everyday, to others it's taking care of your children, to me it's those things, but it's also OWNING UP TO YOUR OWN BULLSHIT!! To me that is a true measure of character be it man or woman.
Every single individual today has some kind of "issue". If they tell you they don't then their issue would be lying wouldn't it?
When I say "issue" I mean to say personal drama or bullshit or characteristic that is problematic.
Do I have "issues"? Shit, I have a subscription!!! I never denied that I do. My past tends to invade my present and I act out when I feel disrespected. Am I always being disrespected? No, probably not so that would be the interpretation in my own head that I need to work on. I lay my own shit bare because that is what I believe in.
A high school friend who shall remain nameless (Bubba) recently told me the greatest thing about me is I have not changed who I am over the years. I still speak my mind, I'm still true to who I am and this is who I will be until the day I die. I am honest and upfront about myself, I live in the open. In turn, I'm honest about what I see around me even if what I say is not popular or taken well. Has it bit me in the ass? Sure it has, many times, but I will not stop being who I am. Could I learn more tact? Sure, couldn't we all in certain areas. For some that may be taking others feelings into consideration or not needlessly twisting things that are said so they aren't in trouble later.
People make mistakes, but the biggest deal is OWNING THEM!! Don't just preach to others how they should be dealing with their life especially if you can't own your own shit because you really have no room or business to be doing so. It's an ongoing process for most and it doesn't just stop one day, you may have to work at it all your life and that's ok. I've been workin on my shit for years, but I never deny it! OWN YOUR BULLSHIT!!! Just sayin......
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